You Make Me Feel Good.

Monday, August 30, 2004

@ 9:02 AM

yappari ne...haha...minna-san, gonme ne! =P kore was watashi nO atarashi email address desU!

halu_shinkai@yahoo.com

still prefer the word "halu" to be in front so i changed my email again...somethings are just like that. you think u can make do with it but you just can't. ha...just like me with a little email address..

going to bathe n then go to schooL sOon! or i will be late..

got my staRhub biLL yesterday. outrageous! total adds up to $112.20. was so troubled by it last night. so i called them up in the morning...haha...mistake they said. deducting the 79.80 i paid when they installed maxonline, the remaining balance for my scv is just 32.40....pHew~

kz...gotta gO! sharLene asked me out...hehe...v happY~* but still dunnO when. it's so nice when ppL you never thought to go out with ask you out... =)

bUai~*

Saturday, August 28, 2004

@ 8:13 PM

hiya ppL! this is my new emaiL add~* hee...

shinkaihalu@yahoo.com

totally & absoLuteLy related to my taKKu....=)
the old email is still in use Of course...wanted halushinkai...but then not available. bleah. shinkai is takuya's name in GooDLUck! whiLe haLu is takku's name in PriDe*

i wanna be the cheerfuL girl that ah gong recognised...........

@ 6:24 PM

wanted to tell everyone i m back to my nOrmal seLf...aLright. i mean aLmost. bUt happened to read my cousin's bLog just now. she wrOte the whoLe prOcess of the crematiOn. she described almost all of the things. which i dun wanna be reminded again. everyone is sad. her eLder sis has been really hot-tempered n has been shouting n quarrelling with her younger sis recentLy. she said ah gong didn't remember her during his last few weeks...she's sad.. i feel sad for her tOo. i mean look. my ah gong remembered everyone....just her being left out.

ah gOng remembered me at all times... although he called me "ah lee" sometimes.but he started doing that since v long. that name was my godmom's name. he often called our names oppositely... how. i feel like crying again.....BREATHES IN...

charLotte! brace uP! n yes. i fOrgot yOur birthday!! =P happy birtHday tO U!! remember to come to ah ma's house often. you know. keep ah ma company...she's getting old too...n aLso to pay respects to ah gong...

yeah. hope he will come n visit aLL of us....=) i miss him...damn lot.

just dL-ed all the econs notes i dun have...jeanie. i need the last econs lect notes. i want tO draw out the diagrams...quite blurred on the photocopied one...=) so your hP can direct infra to pc? guess so...as for the competition k bOx is holding..., need to spend 200 bucks then can participate?? correct me ar...

skipped lecture yesterday. damn it. i missed 2 96 buses lo. waited for a whole 40 mins . so at 1210pm when the third bus came, i decided to pon schooL. come on, i was late already. it would be like 1220 when i enter the lecture hall n everyone stares. =P bLeah...i dun want. missed 2 chi biZ lectures in a rOw..oops.

thOught i will study for jap n chi biZ n econs yesterdae & today. bUt i have been sLacking.... did nOt go to ah ma's hOuse to pay respect to ah gOng today as well... oh yah, i took many photos of me n ah gong in my hP. ha...constantLy reminded of him... want him forever to be in my heart...=) he is aLL well n fine nOw. no more sufferings... just think. how long was he cooped in his roOm n when was the last time he could sit in the living room watching tv. no more suffering for him. yes. nO more... should be glad. we MUST think of it in this way. Grandpa surely doesn't want us to feeL miserabLe too....! =) (erm, i hope i can get over it...actually, almost did it, if not for seeing charlotte's blog.)

ah gong.....I LOVE YOU......

shall get some time for studies man...

Thursday, August 26, 2004

@ 1:03 AM

my goodness...hOw time fLies... it's the seventh day today. went to send my hongkong uncLe off at the airport bef0re paying my respects to my beloved grandpa.... then we saw his belongings... aunties cried...i teared...i know he is happy nOw....but we still can't accept his departUre..

i accompanied him thru'out.... i went to bring him home on tues... saw the remains...man... my ah gong...we took him to his new home. v near to my lil cousin. they can accompany eacH other...=)
the funeral itself was heart-breaking. shan't say mUch. we just feLt the pain piercing thrU our hearts....2nd uncle dreamt of grandpa last night. we were so happy....i hope ah gong comes n see me tOo!!! =)

bUt useLess me...put my wet umbrella in my bag. wetting my hp pouch. wetting my ah gong's photo! it was folded! it had onli been with me for one day. but jeanie kept comforting me saying it's still fine... thanks. but i feel bad... it will be in my wallet for v v v v v long.... was breathing in hard to control my tears in the afternoon. ha..

then on my way bac hOme. walked n walked...tears flowed. when i reached the lift, oh man. fLooD* came home to search for all ah gong's piCs...another fLoOd.. june came at that time. haha...not the apprOpriate time so din invite her in...

yea. i wanna get over the sOrrOw...bUt i shall NEVER EVER forget him.......!

Sunday, August 22, 2004

@ 2:48 AM

yea. i gUess i m nOt reacting sLow. i jUst can't accept the fact well.

friends whO came. i thank U frOm the bOttom of mY heart. june, jeanie,ginnY & pS. =)

theY caMe n went Off. i appeared fine of cOs. theN i will to go tO aH gOng. crY. gO home. crY at 3am...then sLeep fOr a few hOurs & we gO to keep aH gOng company again. tmr is tHe Last niGht. i wOnder hOw i wiLL cOPe. i wOnder hOw aLL of us will cOpe.

my hOngkOng reLatiVe rUshed over here...he reaChed at 12 pLus. very saddening...

i m very very very cLose tO ah gOng.....i m tHe cLosest grandcHiLd to him...i haVe yet tO tell him persOnaLLy tHat i m stUdying at nUs... i have yet tO give him a birtHday card On his birtHday...i haVe yet tO take a phOto witH him....WHY DIDN"T I DO ALL THESE?????

i jUst can't accept it well.

Friday, August 20, 2004

@ 3:01 AM

sOmething happened at hOme... yUp. even at 3 am nOw, i m stiLL awake.

i knOw i shOuLd be gLad. he passed away with qUite a peacefuL mind.. that's wad i wished fOr.. perhaps i m the one nOt willing to face reality. Or perhaps i have sUch slow reaction. everyOne started crying. i onLy start afterf them. when i m taLking, i forget abOut this. when i m nOt, mY mind is in a totaL bLank. bUt sLowLy, as the thought Of my grandpa comes intO my mind, i will tear...

there's lessOn tmr at 12 noon. will be gOing to granny's befOre that. then after the coffin arrives, i will then decide whether to attend lectUre. mOnday i won't be gOing to scH at aLL. aLL of uS, we want to be bY his side...

jeanie n pS. thanks for the concern.

jUne! dunnO why. i reaLLy cried when i saw yOur msG. reaLLy tOuched my heart... i gUess so. he will aLways be in mY heart!!! fOrever.....

i gUess i need time tO get Over this. aLL of us knOw we shOUld be gLad that he is free frOm all thOse sufferinGs aLready. bUt the thought Of him leaving us is just so saddening....

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

@ 11:46 AM

hey!!! mY brOadband is instaLLed le!! haha...the speed definiteLy faster....aLot faster...bUT may seem nOrmal to U all. haha...

Jeanie! thaNKs for helping me tO bid fOr tutoriaLs last night~* haha...when U heLp me that time reaLLy qUite fast. haha... i jUst got reminded Of our chinese lecturer's "poG poG poG poG"
hahahahhaha!! oH enjOy reading yOur cLeo mag~ =)

pS. i may need tO get yOur agencY's number frOm U! haha...need tO find tuitiOn... =P

jUne aH! mY cHi lecturer can reaLLy mUmbLe man... me n jeanie couldn't hear him prOperLy... haha... then i reaLLy dOzed Off again.............haha.. sOmetimes we pOp by eacH other's canteen k? then at least still can meet..i haven try the science faC dessert yet.

mY maddie!! thaNKs fOr the wOnderfuL sms that daY. hehe...i feeL qUite PoOr recentLy~* =P thanks aLot...! U tOo. gaMbaRimasU!! =)

oh! went tO sinG k at party wOrld with jeanie.... erm like befOre sch started... we went to sch earLy at 9am. then we found out that we still can't biD for tutoriaLs. so we went cLementi. the sTupid kbOx is nOt opened in the mOrning. as wad the lady in pizzaHut said " kbOx still not stabLe so dun OPen sO earLy" =S sO we went partY wOrLd.

haha...the mangO miLk very niCe. act cUte with jean n sanG "sUkidayO" ..din nOe gOt this
sOng.. aha.. then we started singing "hiGh" songs...starting from amei's high high high...to eLva's songs. n sun yaNzi's...hahahhaha..we gOt very high... esP. jeanie....think she gOt crazy. haha! =P jOking~

then we went to bUy mY contacT lenses...mY last pair broke/spLit intO haLf in the mOrning..haha..was stUnned when i saw it. bOught a one yr sUpply of lenses...$150...=S
then we went tO appLy for the dBs master card n eZ Link. bUt bOth aLso cannOt... then we went shOpping...hee...S &K!! One Of mY faV... bOught this briGht yeLLow tOP with a white haLter inside...v niCe. like it aLot...=) jeanie bOugHt a skirT & a pinK tOp tOo!! hehe....

yea! did i mention abOut mY late rePly to the arts cLub regarding the jap students' visit? aLthough i replied late, they caLLed me yesterdaY afternOon to ask if i reaLLy can commit tO the event. i said yes n even heLPed jeanie to get a PLace too...sO the 2 Of us will get the cHance to interaCt with the jap students!! =) haha...jeanie said something like "violet u go get one n then yOu can go japan" hope they are cUte. =)

Saturday, August 14, 2004

@ 10:40 PM

went for econs make-up leCture in a suPer LoCkOrk attire. haha.. it's just a make-up...sOmemore saturday...was feeLing sLeepy thrU-out. bUt!!! i didn't dOze off ok...

was Looking through the health bOoklets of mine yesterday! haha....was onli 2490g when i was given birth...then within six months i was 7.5kg...! haha...like piG. then talked to mUm happily about the tOpic. she toLd me hOw i liked to finish everything in the bowL & how i would get very excited uPon seeing & tOuching mahjOng tiLes. haha... the nUrse did tests when we were babies...like putting tOys in front of us n see if we will touch n play with it. making sounds behind you & see whether u will respond to them...very very cUte...

then i tOok out my baby fOto aLbum to see the PiG* the moment i saw the piC my grandpA was carrying me i just teared then started crYing...aiyOh. i just couldn't controL mYself...that led to my funnY doubLe eyelids tHis morning..haha...caUsing me to feel tired as well cOs eyes couldn't seem to open big enUff...

anywaes, i am gettinG my broadband starhUb maX onLine installed On tuEsday mOrning... hope tutoriaLs dun begin that day. if not i have to change the date again... =S i tried caLLing the hotline for the whoLe day. n at last. this gUy picked up my caLL... asked him to explain why were things diff from wad i was told last thUrs about the promotion...the old one has ended...n the new prOmotion has the installation fees waived...so i changed mY plan. hehe. i gOt the one with a speed doubLe of the initiaL plan...it's wireless connection i think. bUt it's $67 per month....paying it mYseLf... bLeah. i have tO get reassurance from sis & mOm that i made the right cHoice...haha... 58 bUcks for the initial plan(still must pay 50 bUcks for installing). bUt 9 bucKs more i can get doubLe the speed...aiyOhss... ok nO more changing.......

the guy who talked to me last thurs was kelvin so sOOn after i put down the phone this kelvin called...asked for his opinion n everything then somehow it seems like we started to chat. haha... quite funnY... n i fOrgOt to ask him how dO i go about getting the free gift... =S nvm...

ok ch55 has this nice hk serial, got ghosts one. but i m alone at home. dun daRe to watCh. haha...i m recOrding it so i can watcH it with mOm when she's bacK..

repLied to the arts cLub about the jap students' visit to nus...saw the email on wed. bUt wasn't sUre whether shouLd jOin it. then was tired yesterdaY so din Log on n tOt i wouldn't regret..haha...but i did. so despite the fact that they told us to reply by friday, i replied it jus now. gave it a trY~* if there's still vacancy.............it wiLL be gOod!! =)

haven been making new friends these few days in scH.....hmmmm.....whY??? hahaha... maBBe shall wait for tutorial cLasses to start... it had been me<--> jeanie over the past week. haha..

just avOided wOrk today. xH called me to work because this new gal in prima has lotsa prObs. always calling to say she's not feeling well. DUH. then i said ok initially. but ard 3 i felt my heart was beating ToOOooo fast. so i called to rejeCt. hehe... then xH called again in the evening to say the 15 yr old gal in our shop asked her mOm to call up & say she is quitting.... so irresponsibLe k! she has to wOrk today n tmr & she's only saying it now. couldn't get her to the phOne i heard froM xh. wad is this man... end up i have to work 11 hours tmr...=(

i will miss mY j-pop programme oN ch54......... haiz.

mY sis' bF is here n he wants to watcH his sOccer i think.. gOtta stOP my recOrding...=( but cannOt saY nO. bLeah.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

@ 1:37 AM

now i dunno why i m online... dL-ing songs...can't seem to connect back to the song i lost this morning...=( my w-inds.... i wanna get mp3 player~* 249 bUcks for 256mb storage. ok right? but 249....hmmm

jeanie...the chinese zuOpin i think got error. everytime i open it will close shortly...then the other one still ok. but my printer kena stuck then it got into this *forever-sPoOLing* state...=S but i loaded all the notes. like intro to jap, intrO to china biz & the chinese studies nOtes....think i printing tmr. sorry ar. tot i photocopy your econs then i print out some of the rest but my printer... haha...oh the china biZ SURE LOOKS CHIM. =S one word: jiaLat. how?? think only our exposures are well-chosen. the other 2 quite bad. esp the china biz. level 2 somemore. ha.

shall get up earlier tmr to print the notes..

i m meeting jeanie tmr. have been meeting her for the past few days.. =) then we would take the shuttle n go round the campus doing this n that..

attended the micrObes lecture today. saw ruiQi. my sec 1's orientation councillor.haha... the old lecturer...always talk alOt n out of the points sometimes. he's being too detailed. haha...btH...then the videO. i really dozed half...autOmatically shut off from the class. i think many others did too. 4 hours is just too long..............i need sour stuffs every wed to keep me awake then!

the shOw jeanie mentioned...Yah!!! i feel like slapping the wenjinG!! how could she. i have watched so many shows before n i think she's the most despicable woman!!! how could she??? cheated on her best friend & her husband...*gOu ying* the best fren's husband then purposely let the fren find out...argghhhh...cried...felt so sad for the jian jie... *chOi* if my fren were to treat me like this in the future, i will strangLe her then kiLL my husband n i shall cOmmit sUicide! hahahaha! nah.....=P but G3...heard that ar...=P haha.

k, gtg~* it's late..

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

@ 9:18 PM

wOa...! i got all mY mOduLes! hee...just checked the results nOt long agO. reaL happY. can study wad i chOse...=) smiLes~* thank u brina. for taking the time to call me to explain tghings to me. oh yah, i will check the password sOon so i can view your page again. =)

jeanie ah...haha...thanks! i hOpe i wiLL...live longer..hehe...cos recently i really get out of breath easily. last time not this serious... then nUs got so many flight of stairs to take lo...bleah..

i cried last night due to the pain... as in suddenly experience the pain n *chUan3* again. went to the kitchen to cry. but when i went bac to living room the tears still flowed...couldn't control. was rather scared...then mom started to prob. prob prob.. i din wanna tell her. but she could see i wasn't well. then....i went to bed. woke up this morning with visibLe double eyelids.haha...

yup like jeanie said. i stared at the pC for hours with her. from 10 til 3pm. my contacts were so dry. just viewed jean's blog, for a moment i tot i could go blind. haha. too many colors from the blackness...phew.. haha...

oh yea! the pic in which me n pS were laughing. jeanie told me it was because june took so long to capture our smile n then realised it was in the wrong mode. pS & i sorta having cramps due to smiling. i like that piC =) i like mY dearest g4 company...

have yet to check up on the venue for my microbes,environment & mankind lecture...that's mY breadth*...haha..last minute found that being availabLe. haha...me & jeanie were like we just discovered so treasure or gold! so damn difficuLt to find modules available for SS/GEM
so we decided to take breadth. as for SS we chose some funny thing. "china businesses in s'pore & beyond" woa.........dunno wads that. ha!

i chose chinese studies, jap studies, & econs....exactly the same!! me n jeanie are having the same modules this sem. n we bidded successfully for them using same number of points~
yeP. jeanie. u are stuck with me. ever since sec 2. fated? perhaps...=P mabbe 2nd sem we will be taking diff stuffs. but at least for now, we will be together for some time! bear with my nonsense pls....hehe...

pS! u okie ma? u read jean's blog. see the part on old hag\woman? when we went up to look for her she changed her attitude...became sarcas.... when she asked for my name, i said "violet chew yan yee" so she had no chance to WHAT me...hahaha... even made the chew* movement behind her back. think jeanie found that quite funny. =P

G4! announcement. most prob saturday we are meeting for lubnch or something. haha...keep reminding. cos i really want a outing for us.... =)

have yet to tell my mom about the bidding results. right, buHbYe!!!

Saturday, August 07, 2004

@ 12:01 AM

tOday i went tO nuS again...to settLe paper wOrk. heng gOt JUne to accompany me n jeanie...if nOt we will be quite lost. yep i m gOnna stUdy with my hUa cHi jie mei...haha...was walking with her ard arts faC...then we tOok our 1st pic with my hP..ha...wOnt be deleting that...i was feeling quite uncomfortabLe while walking up all the stairs...to reach THE DECK haha...yup...i think i m really not feeling that comfortabLe n well recentLy. all the fast heart beat rate...n the chest pain. aiyOh. i wanna live longer. ha.. =X but went for check uP today. the dOc says my heart mUrmur is back again. sorta expected that...i m feeling weird nOw. mabbe because i m crOss at the application form online for banK loan. there's this 502 gateway error right now. hOw m i supposed to get things done tmr then? guess will have to settle it on tuesday.. thOse new comers aren't that nervous for the loans stuffs..haha..they seem like this...

oh yah. i went NTU today as well. accompanied jeanie to withdraw from NTU..guess who i saw. sheane shouted my name. then i saw yixin & xiuhui!! haha..they are all from business...haha...so niCe to see them...sheane with shorter hair...then the other 2 lookin the same. heard that sharKiE is in NUS real estate..yea...we r near..

k i shall try to get the form downloaded one more time. there's still work tmR. shall break the news to lady bOss over the phone tmr~* bUai..

Thursday, August 05, 2004

@ 3:05 PM

"may i speak to violet? i m calling from NUS admin office. we have a vacancy for you now. are u in any institution right now?" this was the call i got say 3 hours agO...haha...too good to be true isn't it? haha... i got very excited upon getting that call. found it hard to breathe normally also. haha...i even pinched myself after that..hehe..

yUp. called my sis n mum to tell them the gd news. mum said gO for it...sis too... sO did gOdmOm...she was really happy for me. could sense it thrU the phOne. yup i want the pLace..chinese studies...mY 1st chOice all along.. =) the lady was very nice. she said they will email me the details later and i should contact her to give my decision. but right now still haven receive the mail. guess it was because of my second appeal letter...sounded quite pitiful n i only stated CHINESE STUDIES. haha... it's orientation now. so guess sch is starting next week. told june that most prOb i will have to go NUS tml to settle some stuffs. like paying the 500 bucks. she said she will accOm me. =) jean knOws about it already..have yet to tell pS..oh yah still havta add her to my links...

this a definitely a great piece Of news for me...erasing for hatred for the hair-dresser...haha...i went to have my hair cut on monday. the shop which did my rebonding...the guy wasn't there. so this lady cut for me. i told her clearly wad i wanted.yet...... she cut my fringe so shOrt. i wanted to go daisO after the cut. but after i looked into the mirror.(she told me to close my eyes) my whole heart sank! *(^*&$$%#^*%*& was in my mind shortly....then i paid, got out of the shop, n walked with my head Low back home...was ashamed to see ppL. right now for the time being i m going to have my hair pushed back with hair band...wait till the fringe grows back...i WILL NEVER ENTER THE SHOP AGAIN! >.<

maybe i need rebonding end of this year again...hehe..

oh yah...i met the guy of my dreams on 26th juLy!! haha...he very cute...actually the image of him has faded..he is the sporty kind. english speaking. nOt tall. dark. very cute-looking!! he entered prima...tog with this gal. i tot it's another couple entering. then he turned to the counter. haha..i kena *dian-daO* then each of them were holding the plate. so i guessed them 2 are not couple. they reached the counter at the same time. i served the gal first. then the guy stammered when it was his turn. haha...he very cute lah..wahaha...

saw this hotmail signal popping out jus now. guess it's the lady. heh...gtg! take care peeps! june ps jeanie...we gO out next weekend okie? have yet to take our neOprints..haha...